So, as with many things in life, I have had my ups and downs… unfortunately, this has also included my weight. I could sit here and blame my genes (thanks a lot Dad!), but at the end of the day it’s my own fault 🙂
All judgement aside, having a healthy weight has been one of my greatest struggles. Some people might think, ‘oh, just go on a diet’, or ‘oh, just stop eating’, or ‘oh, just exercise’ and you’ll be okay. And although all these things are true and necessary to achieve weight loss, losing weight just aint that easy.
I’ve done my share of diets and exercise programs and some have worked, but never permanently. Losing weight is hard work and takes discipline. It’s about caring enough about myself to choose carefully what I put into my mouth and caring enough about my body to give it enough activity. It’s about working out even when I’m too tired of don’t feel like it and it’s about eating things that are delicious (aka fattening) in moderation… I’ll just have a little… 🙂
Ah, eating just a little… this is the root of the problem. FOOD is DELICIOUS. Eating is supposed to be an enjoyable experience, however we grow up in a world that says, if you’re overweight you can’t enjoy xyz, and sometimes not even a little…. Has anyone ever told you, you can’t have something? What does that often do? Make you want it more, no? In my case, subconsciously, I think yes.
So since I have been overweight most of my life, and thus have not been “allowed” to eat these “forbidden” foods, when I have fallen off the bandwaggen and become “bad” then I’d try and get as much in as possible before the sun rose and I’d be doomed to the “evil” restraint provided by tomorrow’s diet. However, often TOMORROW wuld never come quick enough… And one day of “cheating” would turn into two, three, sometimes even weeks… And then the snowball effect of not wanting to work out because, oh well what’s the point if I was “bad.” Ok, so I recognize, there is a problem… Isn’t that supposed to be the first step in solving it? Yes… well, good… But now….
Now it’s time to solve it… It’s time to embark on a journey of change… One where I am consistent, one where I am discliplined, one where I develop new habits, one where I have a “renewed mind” (through Christ obviously) and a new body.
Today I start this journey by doing a 5 day cleanse along with 5 days of working out this week. And we shall see where it takes me… I have faith, that with God’s help I will be able to do all things through Christ who strengthens me and will end up a much healthier, happier Jessica on the other side…
I plan on blogging throughout my journey to share my struggles and successes and if there’s anyone out there that wants to join me, let me know.